Definite lacking in focus
HARD TO FOCUS.
Did I mention I can't really focus?
I have to start working on an essay due in one of the classes I am still taking. My topic is risk factors for depression in older adults. Guess what?! One of the factors, one of the huge factors, is social isolation! Imagine that. Spend a moment of your self-isolating (but probably not alone!) time imagining that.
Good
lord
good
lord
The essay I do will not be a good one I can tell you that much. That much I can tell you.
I also have to I think in two weeks 'attend' a presentation other students are doing. Something like that. And I also have to find older adults workshops to attend - information on dementia etc. because I missed a "High Five' workshop due to being sick back in the day when the school was open. I had two in person workshops lined up but of course now everything is cancelled forever. I have a couple of online ones I can attend but they cost $20 each and are videos and only an hour each and I have to make up like 6 hours. Um . . .
The instructor is not loosening the reins on that and I have to find things. Uh huh.
Other folks I know are struggling with this self isolation as well and worrying about getting the virus and the spread and all sorts. Terrifying. I have a friend in Spain who is very scared as it is so so out of control there. But I really don't know anyone else who is self-isolating alone. I am trying not to think too much about it or I actually will lose it.f
I cycled again today - going to try to cycle at least four times a week and long bike rides (if my arthritic knee keeps behaving that is and I don't get sick). Sunshiny days or sure and light rainy days. If the soaking rains come back - no.
These are terrifying times but I'm not sure that some other folks realize just how terrifying - there were so many happy smiley happy joy joy faces at the beach today and throughout my bicycle ride. Milling about like nothing is going on. Bur then maybe I look like that too. I don't know. This is all so unprecedented. Maybe it will hit people later when they lock us down more - the only thing left to do really is to have police roam the streets to make sure we don't go out. Maybe that is what needs to be done. I think it will come to this.
Terrifying.
The new reality.
Some say this could last 18 months which seems unreal as well - but apparently if they reduce the social distancing ban, the virus will come roaring back.
Okay, on to a new topic.
Hmmm, a new topic. Difficult.
Where do we go for community at times like this? I don't know. That said, someone from the church I sometimes attend came out on transit (very very few people on the bus, she said) and dropped off two servings of home made shepherds' pie to me. That was extraordinary. She loves cooking but still. Holy cow and I don't really even know her. She made the offer on Facebook and no one else took her up on it! She offered delivery and everything. Another person from the church offered to get me some groceries but I said that was okay, I could do it (and I can it is my one outing anywhere. Risky of course but . . .)So there a couple of folks from the church who are being amazing. But it is a difficult time for the church to figure out what to do and how to act and how to help - it has had to, I believe, close down their meal program. Not sure if they are still offering a take out service. I should check. I know it is so hard for churches (and everyone anywhere) to figure out. Another church I used to attend - one of the folks is keeping in Facebook and phone contact with me if I like (I like!). She is a lovely woman who now has her three kids and husband at home full time with her and she works part time and has to figure that out - figure out what is safe. I have offered to call people who might like a call in the first church but nothing has moved forward yet. Again, so difficult to figure out - how can the church be community for people at times like this/ How do we help people who are (like me, like many perhaps in this church) are isolating alone? Tricky. I hope it gets figured out so I can help and be helped.
Community.
Oops said I was going to change the topic and I did not! My young classmates seem to be faring quite well - but then it seems they are all isolating with their families (their parents younger than me generally, ha).
So yeah, I'll probably go into a major depression and that will just be a part of this.
Eeek.
I'm looking for new shows on Netflix to binge as well. It is time for that.
So yeah, it seems I have no other topic to write about. Times are tough. I would love to hear though from people who are not freaked out about this whole thing and who are able to mosey along. What's the secret?
New topic next blog post! I'll write about - oh goodness knows what really.
Did I mention I can't really focus?
I have to start working on an essay due in one of the classes I am still taking. My topic is risk factors for depression in older adults. Guess what?! One of the factors, one of the huge factors, is social isolation! Imagine that. Spend a moment of your self-isolating (but probably not alone!) time imagining that.
Good
lord
good
lord
The essay I do will not be a good one I can tell you that much. That much I can tell you.
I also have to I think in two weeks 'attend' a presentation other students are doing. Something like that. And I also have to find older adults workshops to attend - information on dementia etc. because I missed a "High Five' workshop due to being sick back in the day when the school was open. I had two in person workshops lined up but of course now everything is cancelled forever. I have a couple of online ones I can attend but they cost $20 each and are videos and only an hour each and I have to make up like 6 hours. Um . . .
The instructor is not loosening the reins on that and I have to find things. Uh huh.
Other folks I know are struggling with this self isolation as well and worrying about getting the virus and the spread and all sorts. Terrifying. I have a friend in Spain who is very scared as it is so so out of control there. But I really don't know anyone else who is self-isolating alone. I am trying not to think too much about it or I actually will lose it.f
I cycled again today - going to try to cycle at least four times a week and long bike rides (if my arthritic knee keeps behaving that is and I don't get sick). Sunshiny days or sure and light rainy days. If the soaking rains come back - no.
These are terrifying times but I'm not sure that some other folks realize just how terrifying - there were so many happy smiley happy joy joy faces at the beach today and throughout my bicycle ride. Milling about like nothing is going on. Bur then maybe I look like that too. I don't know. This is all so unprecedented. Maybe it will hit people later when they lock us down more - the only thing left to do really is to have police roam the streets to make sure we don't go out. Maybe that is what needs to be done. I think it will come to this.
Terrifying.
The new reality.
Some say this could last 18 months which seems unreal as well - but apparently if they reduce the social distancing ban, the virus will come roaring back.
Okay, on to a new topic.
Hmmm, a new topic. Difficult.
Where do we go for community at times like this? I don't know. That said, someone from the church I sometimes attend came out on transit (very very few people on the bus, she said) and dropped off two servings of home made shepherds' pie to me. That was extraordinary. She loves cooking but still. Holy cow and I don't really even know her. She made the offer on Facebook and no one else took her up on it! She offered delivery and everything. Another person from the church offered to get me some groceries but I said that was okay, I could do it (and I can it is my one outing anywhere. Risky of course but . . .)So there a couple of folks from the church who are being amazing. But it is a difficult time for the church to figure out what to do and how to act and how to help - it has had to, I believe, close down their meal program. Not sure if they are still offering a take out service. I should check. I know it is so hard for churches (and everyone anywhere) to figure out. Another church I used to attend - one of the folks is keeping in Facebook and phone contact with me if I like (I like!). She is a lovely woman who now has her three kids and husband at home full time with her and she works part time and has to figure that out - figure out what is safe. I have offered to call people who might like a call in the first church but nothing has moved forward yet. Again, so difficult to figure out - how can the church be community for people at times like this/ How do we help people who are (like me, like many perhaps in this church) are isolating alone? Tricky. I hope it gets figured out so I can help and be helped.
Community.
Oops said I was going to change the topic and I did not! My young classmates seem to be faring quite well - but then it seems they are all isolating with their families (their parents younger than me generally, ha).
So yeah, I'll probably go into a major depression and that will just be a part of this.
Eeek.
I'm looking for new shows on Netflix to binge as well. It is time for that.
So yeah, it seems I have no other topic to write about. Times are tough. I would love to hear though from people who are not freaked out about this whole thing and who are able to mosey along. What's the secret?
New topic next blog post! I'll write about - oh goodness knows what really.
Does it have the same impact if we're all self isolating together? I feel like this is a group activity or at least should be.
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